2009年3月18日 星期三 ♥
HELLO GIRLS! :D凌晨1:16
i'm not feeling happy today . ):
i thought friends were supposed to keep in touch/ not drift apart & stay with each other no matter where they are . this was what i originally thought.. and these were just friends, not to say , good buddies - esp those who have weathered through the stormy days with you .
i didnt expect things to turn out this way after we have graduated , seriously. i thought after so much that happened in secondary school will help us improve our relationship, strengthen our friendship .
just from her blog alone , i know everything is changing .
she has her own school friends, her own environment , her own life , without me being around .
we used to be able to rant & gossip about everything under the sun , laugh about every smallest thing . and now , on msn / sms , our convosation has reduced to basic words - hi , haha, lol , okay , bye . yes, im not exaggerating . and i still have to THINK HARD of what to say in order to keep up with the convosation with her . things arent supposed to be this way .
i thought she didnt have a habit of tagging people on tagboards, but i was wrong . i randomly clicked on a few of her new bestfriends' blogs , and ha-ha , they are like talking about anything and everything they can talk about . they are like crapping like we used to .
& when i asked her out, everytime .
she wld either say she's booked , or SEE HOW FIRST . and then never ever ever once get back to me . and guess what ? when she claims that she's really bored at home and rotting at home , she never ever get back to me ! i have been asking her out since o lvl end, to her school start, to NOW HOLIDAY ALRD , and soon, my school's starting!
i can understand that she has her bf with her , so , most of the time is spent with her bf. but , at the very least , make time! she has time to rot at home, but no time to meet up .
i dont deny that, yes, i'm jealous of how close they are now .
i'm jealous of her primary school friends, cus they are still able to remain close even though they weren't in the same school .
i used to know that i was one of the most important friend she had .. but now , i don't even know anything about her . i'm afraid after a few more years, we will become nothing more than strangers.
i do know friends come & go , thats what they used to say to comfort me with. i can accept the fact that friends come & go, but i can't accept the fact that BUDDIES COME AND GO . esp only after a few months .
i seriously wished she knew how i feel, she may think i have all my other friends like you all , jiayin & a few other good friends around , but everybody's different!
i wished she knew that how i'm feeling now is actually more than the words that is in this blogpost .
fyi, the she is none of you . so don't worry . but i think you all may have guessed who is it alrd .
& i promise that i will cherish you all and
please dont drift apart like strangers one day okay.
Promised & Cherished ,
Cheryl
